Just Hope

Just  hope  is  all  I  have  today
I  am  not  bad  but  also  not  okay
What’s  wrong?  I  can’t  define,
Everything’s  good.
But  something  interferes  with  my  merry  mood.
Sometimes  some  facts  get  on  my  nerves
But  this  is  not  the  reason  of  my  heaviness.
My  only  dream  is  to  turn  off  my  phone,  
To  switch  off  the  light  in  my  room
 &  fall  asleep  alone.
What’s  wrong,  I  don’t  know.
Everything’s  fine.
But  sometimes  I  look  in  the  mirror
&  see  myself  crying.
I  want…  I’m  trying  all  the  time
To  destroy  this  fucking  moody  style
But  every  time  it  comes  back  to  my  mind
It  seems  to  me  it  wants  one  day
To  see  me  die.  
I  hope  that  tomorrow  everything  will  change
But  the  next  day  I  see  these  circumstences  are  strange
No  changes  at  all
I"m  loosing  control,
I"m  tired,  no  fight,
just  leave  me  alone.
What"s  wrong?  I  can"t  say,
my  soul  became  poor,
God,  please,  give  me  the  key
I  need  your  help  for  sure,
God,  please,  no  more  lees,  no  more  tears,  no  more  fears,
just  delete  my  memory
and  delete  my  feelings.
And  present  someone  else
with  this  beautyful  appearence.

àäðåñà: https://www.poetryclub.com.ua/getpoem.php?id=501901
Ðóáðèêà: ˳ðèêà
äàòà íàäõîäæåííÿ 29.05.2014
àâòîð: Tania Burgart